An Insider

Don't you stop thinking? I'm listening to it, it's deep. Please stop thinking louder, I mean deeper. 
WHAT! Who are you and where are you?

Well, how can you ask that as a very first question to an unknown?
Logic, so who are you?

It's the same question again, huh!
It's the same you. So tell me who are you?

Smart! You'll get that answer soon, buddy. First, answer my question, "Why do you think much"?
See, the only reason that I'm being calm is I couldn't see you. I'm just listening to you. How dare you to enter my house and hide around?

I understand you, friend. That's a lengthy question. I'll take this as a question #2. Now, answer my question. (always in a polite and pleasant voice)
Agrr! I think because I've brain (Loud and frustrated voice)

Oh yeah! If that is the case, I do have one and I can do many things, lol.
WHAT!!

I mean, uh, haha that's okay, forget it. Well, could you please elaborate with your answer?
Would you tell me who you are if I answer your question?

I need an answer friend, not a question. Don't worry! You'll know me at the end.
Okay, I was asked many a time the same question by many of my friends. It's not I think much. It's I experience much. Every situation, every day and almost every incident in my life. When I share something, a very few listen, a few just hear, a few ignore and a few don't even listen. One who listens to what I say comes up with a philosophy that not to think much. Don't take everything into the heart, blah blah blah statements.

Interesting! So what is philosophy and what is a psychology in your view?
Philosophy is what you feel through the heart, whereas psychology is action taken by the brain.

(silence)
Are you there?

Yes, yes I'm. I'm listening. That's so deep an approach. I started thinking now. Wo Wo Wo! You continue. 
Alright! Good that you're in my track now.

I'm always in your track my brother. Continue. 
That's my boy. The more you think, the more you learn. The more you learn, the more you know. The more you know, you'll never be saddened. It's simple. So, there's nothing wrong in thinking, right! Hope you got your answer! Now tell me who the *** are you?

Relax bro, how did you believe that I had only one question? There are many. 
It was a deal, you can't change it.

Show me the proof!
Wha..! Proof? Do you have a sense while talking?

Of course, I do!
No, you don't

Proof?
Oh, my favourite god! Proof again! You've gone mad, bro.

Not the matter of mad. The world, the people, everything around you, is the same. 
(with low voice) Yeah! You're right. If that is the case, we need to get prepared for each and every line on the paper that we speak with others.

Save paper. bro!
Oh, sarcasm! Never mind.

Alright! So, let's come back to our questions.
You're a gum. 

You mean a bubblegum? I like bubblegums.
The more you chew, the harder it becomes. We'll take it out from a wrap with interest (god knows where you'll throw the wrap) First 5 seconds, you'll chew and enjoy it. Later, you just chew it coz you'll chew it. Once it turns hard, you'll spit it out. What did you understand from this?

A rupee bubblegum gives happiness. Worth chewing. Correct?
Shut up!

Sorry.
Good. It's the same with people now. Being good for a few days. Sharing, helping and other friends elements. Once it gets saturated, You forget, I forget! So the more you be, the bored you be. This is what is happening around now. 

You're absolutely correct! But why do they do this?
Less conscious, more priorities. Fewer interests, more flickering. Disloyal too. 

So to whom they are loyal to?
Not all, but none.

Sad. I don't think that they'll be happy inside. Masked hearted people. 
They'll be happy but for a very less time period. Instant happiness, I'd say. They don't see life in a way it should be seen. I pity them. Interesting, you started naming them too. Good! Good!

Thank you, brother! (out of shyness). Why did you suddenly think about this kind of people?
Do you have any other typical minds? If yes, why did suddenly you think that I should think about them? Generalized questions worth nothing. It's just a random thought on random people. Loyalty is a pride, one should live with it. 

That's it! I'm happy that you are aware of what you're thinking about. 
Yes, I do. I think when I only know that I can think. Well, wait..wait..wait! Who are you? Why did you enter my room? You didn't answer my questions at all. I'm like a stupid, was answering all your questions which I generally don't to anyone?

There isn't a stupidity of answering oneself. It's a self-talk. You have this habit of doing it and I'm you. 
"I'm you"? What does that mean?

Am an Insider of yours.
"An Insider" of mine! (Goosebumps). 

Just have a glass of water and close your eyes, I'll sign off for today. 
So all that happened till now was introspecting. Am I talking to my insider? This is crazy bro! You made me the hell out of my thinking. But had a very good time, though. Take care, keep coming outside. But don't scare me, okay. 

Haha, that was a good one! Not sure when I'll come again. But prepared to get scared. 
You idiot! Oh sorry, I'm stepping myself here. Bro you there?
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Alright! I'll get back to my work now.  


                                                                                                           -Sarath Koundinya